Wishcast Wednesday - What burden to you wish to put down?

Wishcast Wednesday again and this week, Jamie Ridler asks...

What burden to you wish to put down?

This wish prompt makes me want to just sit right down and sob.  I didn't realize how burdened I felt until I read this prompt.

I think that I try so much to be optimistic and positive and I try to think of my issues in a positive light that they will soon be gone.  I do positive affirmations, positive thinking and yet I know that I still carry a lot of "stuff".

Of course, I wish to let go of the burden of my "stuff", but I also know that I am a work in progress and that the "stuff" is full of lessons that I have not learned yet and issues I need to work through.

I have one specific burden that weighs heavier and is more painful than the others; that is the burden of the pain, heartbreak, fear, and self-recriminations that is the residue of an abusive relationship.

I wish to put down and walk away from the burden of thinking I could have changed anything about that situation.  That I could have changed how I responded or how he treated me.  That I could have or should have left earlier than I did.  That I let him change me. 

I think I have been holding onto these self-loathing thoughts for too long--it's time to let them go.

You did what you knew, now that you know better, you'll do better.

- Maya Angelou/Oprah


It's never too late--in fiction or in life--to reivise.  - Nancy Thayer

Thank you!

As you all wish for yourself, I so truly and sincerly wish for all of you!

How do you talk to yourself?

This video was forwarded to me from Jamie Ridler in her weekly post, but I had to share it too because it shows how I would like to speak to myself when I look in the mirror.

Wishcast Wednesday - August 11, 2010

Jamie Ridler's Wishcast Wednesday prompt this week is Where do you wish to send some love?

I've actually been thinking a lot about love the last few days--my ability to give it where I see it needed, and my struggle to accept it for myself or give it to myself.

I do love myself, but I know that I don't always talk to myself in a loving manner.  I also am good at seeing where people need things from me and offering, a lot of times without being asked.  What I noticed is that there are very few people who do that for me.  I'm not sure if it's because I am outwardly so independent or if I have a vibe or "leave me be".  I'm sure those reasons could be part of the reason.  I really do hate to ask for help--to feel helpless.  But I have often had to ask for help from my family lately, especially in regards to my finances--which also makes me feel less independent.  Hmmm, perhaps I'm manifesting something in order to be less independent???  Have to think about that...

But, I have digressed...I wish to send some love:

• to myself, to know that I'm on a journey of self-awareness that is leading me to be my best self--and that, right now, I'm the best me I can be.  And...as I continue on my journey, I will always be in the perfect place I need to be to continue to grow.
• to my family, for always being there when I really need them.
• to the friends I have who know me well enough to offer me what they see I need--support, love, etc.
• to this great community of Wishcasters who are all on a perfect journey of their own
• to Jamie Ridler for starting this wonderful community
• to Spirit for this life journey of self awareness, self-acceptance, self-love and to sharing awareness, acceptance, and love with others
• to...whomever needs it

Thank you!

C.